Are regular things worth recording here? I’m not sure. Every previous week, or preceding a post, I had a very well-defined idea of what I was going to write. I have nothing like that for this week. I’m not sure why that is.

It’s not like I’m short on things to write about in general, it’s just that I haven’t given enough concentrated thought to one to be able to expand on it here. Instead, most of this week and the weekend consisted of me desperately trying to get my computer to work properly (read: not crash every fifteen minutes). Other than that, it was the standard skating by school (not a great plan when it was midterms week) and the standard mix of postponing things I “want” to do. Not to say I’ve not done somewhat valuable things this week. I’ve made progress in a textbook I’ve picked up for myself, read some more books, both fiction and non-fiction, and, well, that’s all, I think.

That’s sort of disappointing. I haven’t really done much this week and I should wonder why a bit more, but there’s a fair bit of apathy towards that. To be fair, historically, midterm weeks are always a fair bit less productive than normal. I’m not sure if that’s excusable, because it’s not like the extra time was spent studying. I haven’t worked out at all this week.

Speaking of which, some of my grades are not where they should be right now. I need to take steps to fix this, but I have problems when it comes to maintaining some sort of discipline, especially when the next rounds of midterms are a month and a bit away.

I’m not sure where to go from there. Setting up self-restrictions without last-minute pressures have never been easy; most of what I do that isn’t due within the next few hours tends to be a result of a momentary decision rather than a system I have. If I can consistently make that momentary decision, perhaps things would be fine, but that hasn’t ever been the case. I think it has improved in the last few months, though, or at least I’d like to think so.

This comes back to the overall lack of discipline I have. I’ve always been able to get by because I think I work well under the pressure provided by imminent deadlines, but as for working ahead and bettering myself, I’ve always lagged because there are no given deadlines. I don’t believe setting up a schedule or something is going to help, but there are definitely things I can do to set up a more successful day.

Maintaining a proper sleep schedule is certainly one of them, and possibly one of the more effective ones. It’s generally pretty hard to enforce or maintain. Maybe if I convince myself that this is one of the prerequisites to the other things I want to be I’ll be better able to hold myself to it. I’ll try doing that for the upcoming week and see how it goes.